Girl on the move.....

Have you noticed birds? When its winter in one region, they move on to another place where they can breed. I wonder how easily they adjust to the new environment. This bird is also on a move. She is going to a new place where there are new people, new office and new sorroundings. First time ever in my life, i am leaving my home and going far off for work. I have no clue how am i going to handle it. Not everyone is happy with this decision but one day or the other we all have to move on in life and i think this is the right time for me to explore new place and new people.

I have mixed feelings. I am happy but at the same time slightly nervous about the future. I am not feeling sad to leave my home (because i am taking all my belongings with me, so that will make me feel at home wherever i go) but i am definitely sad to leave my father. My dear dad is so used to me now that he doesnt know what to do after i go. I am sad to leave him but i dont show my feelings to him because that will make him more weak and you never know, he might even discourage me from going there. Now that i am moving to a new place, even he wants to shift there but can't.... because of his job. But now he is seriously thinking of starting a business or search for some work, so that even he can join me there.

This is what made me realise how important i am for him. He fights with me, he shouts me but he cares for me and loves me though never ever in his lifetime he would express this to me. But somethings are best left unsaid and if a person is close enough they would easily understand this, isnt it?

TWO MONTHS LATER:

Today i continue to write this blog after two months...I have adjusted to the new place and i am happy. When i came here, i was totally blank. A numb feeling. Did not know what to do...where to go. For a moment, i thought, was this necessary? Today i stay here as a paying guest. I was not sure whether i had taken the right decision. But just left everything to God. But today, things are totally different. I used to think how birds adjust to new sorroundings with changing seasons..but you know what, not just birds but all living beings adjust everywhere but we humans have one problem...we think a lot...we think a lot of unnecessary things... :)

But one thing that i noticed is that, i never missed mumbai and that surprises me a lot. Being born and brought up there, nobody believes me that i dont miss that place. But that is a fact. The warmth and the belongingness of this state is fabulous. Maybe this is the major difference i see between kerala and mumbai. Mumbai is a busy place, nobody has time for anybody. Warmth is there but you need to search for it. Its May end here and its already raining. and its cold in the evening. And its fun. Being here, i am enjoying my life to the fullest. No worries at all.

You know what!! I have a personal suggesstion, that everyone once in there lifetime, should come down to kerala and just experience the beauty of this state. No wonder this place is called Gods own country. It is simply marvellous. When i go to my hometown every weekend, the beautiful scenary that i see from the train is simply superb. I feel like i have reached heaven. All that beautiful imagination is running through my mind right now. It is rightly said "Home is where the heart is" :)